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wow [Jun. 11th, 2009|04:26 am]
i so don't use this anymore. and apparently neither do most folks. but props to those who've stuck it through.

but i've missed having a space to write down my thoughts. i tend to be a one-liner kind of dude, which is why twitter works out for me. writing for the lfs blog (www.lfssfsu.wordpress.com) gets my writing juices flowing and fills that void.

though i'm already looking forward to future projects as i enter this semi-post-lfs era. a new blog that will hopefully be the basis of my future goals with this soon-to-be completed journalism degree. and since i don't use this anymore and i feel the need for change (and i usually think of change as good), a new personal blog.

this semester i've liked writing again. you can say me and writing are dating. we have our on-and-off days, but in the end, when i get caught up, there's no holding back. but i definitely need to be more disciplined and take it more seriously. symbolic for many things that revolve around my life, yes. but i can't say i'm back in love. not sure. as i dive head first into this whole journalism thing, i'll find out.

but i do love organizing. one would expect that i'd be bitter/ angry/ tired from 4 years on EC. there are many days those feelings overcome me. but i'm even more secure in the fact that no matter what i do, i will always keep the organizing part of my life. nothing makes me feel like a more complete person.

that's it. i'll figure out what i'mma do with this and maybe do a proper burial. who knows when that'll be. but you'll be the first to know.


p.s.: yes i'm still hella single and will probably be so for the foreseeable future. just still trying to work on myself before i enter into that agreement again. also i'm deathly afraid of being in another relationship. and i'm still trying to locate enough trust to make friendships work, let another an intimate one. but with a glimmer of hope, i'll always leave the door open for someone dope to give me the butterflies again. i'm just not holding my breath. i'm a bit of a handful.
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Sleepy [Mar. 10th, 2009|02:39 am]
there are many times during the day i ask myself "why the hell do i do this, i know so many people who get by just being themselves and living with it. why the hell do i try and change myself when i can be totally content with who i am and my flaws. what does it matter? i could just free float through each day if i really wanted to, not being accountable to anyone. i could spend half my day in class and the other half on a gaming console and repeat that everyday for years on in. why wake up? why sit through meetings? why read books that have nothing to do with my major? why go through the trouble of C/SC and assessment? why should i recognize my weaknesses and criticisms? WHY?!?!?!"

the simple answer:
"because the people deserve better. the people around me deserve better. i deserve better."

i hope people see that i'm trying. because i am. i may be slower in some areas than others. but i'm trying. i just need help some/ most of the time.

in the shower i realized that i'm only chair for a couple more months. and how sad and happy that makes me all at the same time.

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Give It Up [Feb. 25th, 2009|11:56 pm]
[Current Location |The Shugashack]
[Current Mood |hopefulhopeful]
[Current Music |The Smashing Pumpkins- Today]

so before, i start on this paper on tracking (which i'm actually excited to write), i just wanted to comment a little bit about this new "Lent" season.

this school year/ semester, i've attempted to make a lot of changes in my life. some successful. some failures. some are works in progress.

as some folks know, Lent is a time where us Catholics are supposed to give up something. today being Ash Wednesday, it was kinda the deadline (man, this whole fasting thing hurts my stomach). i had no clue what to give up. talking to my good friend charles about it, he made me realize that its not about giving something up for the sake of giving it up, but to make changes in your life that are long lasting and for the better. i was talking to melissa about it in the car and we agreed to make a list of things that we want to improve on.

while i still intend on doing that, something kind of dawned on me. there is something i want to give up. not so much give up, but to let go and/ or clarify. i don't want to spell it out too much nor do i wanna be super cryptic about it. but while i've been trying to do an overall "cleansing" of my life the past year, its time to do so on another level in my life. a more focused one. i'm sure for most of you, it will not have an affect. but for me, this is something important to my overall personal development.

with that said, its time to make a separate list.

but until then. its time to write a paper. and to finally eat a freakin' meal!
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just one of those nights [Feb. 16th, 2009|07:48 am]
so i didn't sleep yet. i dunno what it was. i'd like to think it was because i truly did want to catch up with school/ lfs/ emails. more likely its because i screwed up my sleeping pattern and i slept till 2 pm the other day.

so v-day sucks. that's the bitter/ hopeless romantic in me speaking. i spent it by myself (as the saturday day night live episode would remind me). its ok though. i bought myself stuff because i love me...sometimes. that's why i have a counselor, so i can figure out whether i really do or not. true story.

but neil armstrong's bittersweet mix was a good way to start and end the day.

its not good when i mope around my room all day. i get cabin fever. even when i tell everyone its what i love to do.

my theme song for the end of the week: blackstar- beef.

the best 2 things about the week: Fanboys, and in a close 2nd, Warriors game.

i tried writing this in hopes of getting myself sleepy. but alas, i have failed. what else is new. i can't even get myself to fall sleep. i blame the government. what else is new.

i'm sure there's some book that i'm supposed to read. piece.
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Dreaming of a Free Palestine [Feb. 2nd, 2009|01:38 am]
[Current Location |The Shugashack]
[Current Mood |angryangry]

sorry for the lack of updates. told ya i'd be hella busy once school starts. well, once we're finished with tabling and i minus (maybe) one more class from my schedule, i'll have more time to complain about my day here. i'm just kidding, i'm being mean. but i just wanted to share a clip from the recent '60 Minutes' program. they finally get the balls and show THE TRUTH about what's going on in palestine. well, it's a start at least. hopefully it will get people to think more critically about the victim attitude towards Israel and the terrorist attitude towards Palestine. i witnessed on friday a very emotional and impassioned update on the situation on Gaza. filipinos are forever in solidarity with the palestinians and their right to return to their land. END THE OCCUPATION!

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T-Minus 1.5 Days Until the Start of Spring Semester [Jan. 25th, 2009|03:18 am]
[Current Location |The Shugashack- San Diego]
[Current Mood |busy]
[Current Music |All American Rejects- Dirty Little Secret]

so it wasn't so sunny here in san diego. woke up around 12. hit up the bakery to see if my parents were there, but every other family member was. went to change cell phones. still can't text or receive text messages. but at least i have a "new" phone. then me and jayr got carne asada fries and headed over to my brother's house to hang out with rach and the kids. i thought the kids would be happy to see me, but they were more impressed with super smash brothers on wii. but then again, i never say hi to anyone when i'm playing video games either.

we spent a good while catching up with stories. then i head back to my sister's house to start on laundry. i do a couple of loads at my sister's, then rach volunteers my nephew to help out with a bag of clothes. then we go to the ramona house and i start on another 2 loads. yes i have a lot of laundry. we kick at at ramona for a while, KAMP folks were in the middle of their retreat, ya know, playing rock band and watching step brothers. then me and jayr head back to my sister's house and here we are. one more day. going to finish laundry. not sure when i'm leaving yet. most likely i'll be back monday morning.

alright, back to laundry. no video. didn't see anything new. man, one more day. i hope its at least sunny tomorrow. piece.
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T-Minus 2.5 Days Until the Start of Spring Semester [Jan. 24th, 2009|04:05 am]
[Current Location |The Shugashack- San Diego]
[Current Mood |draineddrained]
[Current Music |Estelle- Come Over (feat. Sean Paul)]

so i'm in san diego now. wasn't that bad of a drive, minus the small patches of dense fog. me and jayr had sonic's in gilroy which helped settle for the rest of the trip.

i'm going to use the rest of the weekend to ground myself before the start of school. clean things up (computer and laundry), figure out a plan, and prepare my head for the semester. i already know its going to be a long one.

oh and i was listening to the entire warriors/ cavs game on the radio. man, i think i'm a cursed fan. i watched the chargers lose close ones all season. now the warriors. i think i'm going to start cheering for the lakers =)

i'm going to head to bed (or couch) now. video? oh alright. in honor of my new found love. and hopefully you love it too. especially if you're a nerd. piece.

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T-Minus 3.5 Days Until the Start of Spring Semester [Jan. 23rd, 2009|02:03 am]
[Current Location |The Shugashack]
[Current Mood |impressedimpressed]
[Current Music |The Pharcyde- Runnin']

today i contemplated leaving for san diego. there's some things i needed to do, but i figured i need as much time there as i can get right? then i get confirmation from my good ol' friend jayr that he's able to go with me, but after he gets off work friday. so i figure the trade off of leaving early for some extra time to do shit and to have company for the drive was worth it.

while i figured all this out, i was watching the first season of 'Big Bang Theory' on dvd (a frakin' awesome nerdy show!). i met up with vic for some king of thai, then i went to the 141 house to hang out for a bit. i accompany jinell to serramonte and come out sharing an orange julius. then i watch america's best dance crew with the house + brandon. my favs for the week were Beat Freaks and Strikers All-Stars. and i have to drink the cool aid and give it up to dynamic edition. when i was at 141, alan made a very persuasive case for why quest crew isn't all that great, and he had videos to back it up. they were alright this week. fly khicks need to go next week.

so i decided to make this one video heavy simply for the fact that i don't have much to talk about. since we're on the subject, alan showed us a few videos of dancing.

this kid is pretty dope. i feel sorry for the dude who has to battle him because no matter what he does, he's still battling someone a lot younger than him that has a lot of skill. check out his other vids if u can. oh and alan showed us this one video with soviet soldiers dancing, but its even better when there's funk playing in the background. stay tuned for that video project.

this was a clip for tonight's daily show. fucking fox news. that's all i gotta say.

and lastly, found off of yahoo's main page (guess it was a slow news day). in honor or monta ellis' return to the warriors tomorrow. i hope to do that on the court someday.

alright. next update will be back home. piece.
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T-Minus 4.5 Days Until the Start of Spring Semester [Jan. 22nd, 2009|04:30 am]
[Current Location |The Shugashack]
[Current Mood |anxiousanxious]
[Current Music |Nas- Black President]

yeah, i know. i tried. i kept it up pretty well though. considering my usual habits.

monday- watched pre-inauguration stuff. then went to a NAFCON-sponsored townhall meeting talking the different issues the filipino community faces, mostly focused on immigration. afterwards, went with kristen to watch notorious. it was alright. uneven acting. people who didn't look like the characters they were playing. but i did tear up a bit towards the end.

tuesday- wanted to wake up for the inauguration, set my alarm and everything. but i must admit. i slept right through it. woke up in time for the parade. spent the first day of the obama presidency hanging out on haight street. usual spots. found some good stuff on sale at amoeba. ate at askew grill. expensive ass lunch/ dinner. took the scenic route (geary to ocean beach) back home. hung out with jinell, watched the 50 inaugural balls obama went to. watched him and the mrs. dance the same dance 50 times.

wednesday- immigration rally at city hall. kinda felt good to get back into the political work again. drove folks home. warriors-OKC game. awww bad ending. the end.

i went through all this emotion crap in my head earlier. but now that i feel better, i don't feel like sharing, haha. maybe next time. i just need to appreciate the things i have and spend less time thinking of the things i don't. i'm tired, so i'mma go to sleep. but before i go, in honor of the bush presidency. piece.

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T-Minus 8 Days Until the Start of Spring Semester [Jan. 19th, 2009|02:49 am]
[Current Location |The Shugashack]
[Current Mood |sleepysleepy]
[Current Music |Muse- Starlight]

i caught up with sleep this morning, waking up in time to catch the 2nd half of the eagles/ cardinals game. i have to admit, i didn't think the cardinals would win it. the longtime football fan in me just couldn't imagine it. but it ended up to be a really good game. props to you arizona. since i was caught up watching, i showed up to the basketball game late. but they had hella folks playing. i got my time in though. it's been a while since i've played so i sucked more than usual. though i was finally able to hit the last shot of our last game. i'm not as sore as i usually get, but we'll see tomorrow morning. then some of us went to sliders and talked about the old times.

we have one more day with bush as U.S. president. even though he shouldn't have had one minute in that position. but hey, no point in being bitter anymore. yes, tuesday is going to be historic. yes, i voted for obama so i believe in him...to a point. is he really going to "change" anything? well, i think he would have allowed israel to still bomb gaza to the ground. and unless he changed his past stance, then the U.S. is still going to support GMA. we still have a lot of work to do folks in order to create "change". but hey, who am i to be such a debbie downer? let's breathe in the non-Bush filled air once again.

so with that said, we have one more week till the start of the semester. that means another LFS Open House. and while our videos last year we're pretty awesome. my only request is that this years' resemble this one. piece.

p.s.: go warriors!

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